Monday, March 8, 2010

Dear, Failure! Please Don't Be My Middle Name!

I lost my ability in writing. I've been just writing three post this year. It's kinda hectic moment of my life. It's overwhelming. I really am stressful. In this moment I just wanna take a break. I want to have a getaway. And I found that my blog is the perfect getaway. Writing is one of my favourite thing to do when I feel so mess up. I ever wrote my blog while crying or even with fully-smile-face. and I dont care about what I wrote because I know people won't read it haha.

My ultimate goal this year: become med school student, not just FKUGM. As long as it's med school and I'm being accepted there I will definitely take it. No, I'm not pesimistic with my very first goal, but I'm just being realistic. About fifteen thousand people are wanting to become med school student this year and just about 300++ luckiest of all gonna be accepted. That's a huge number guys! It's 1 : 50!!! And I failed in my very first enroll test. PBS. And I'm going to have UTUL UGM, UM I UNDIP, SIMAK UI... Bismillah, I hope the failure won't come to me again and it won't be my middle name this year.

Why medical school? Why doctor?I don't know, it's my dream job since I was in kindergarten. I never found anything more interesting than become doctor. No, don't say because my mom is a doctor. Yes she is a doctor, but not the one who works in hospital. She is working in Ministry of Health and she's travelling alot. She's far away from what a real doctor look like. But I want to be like her, but just the travelling parts. Hahaha. Now, she is in Bangkok and later in July she will be in Washington. Oh I'm so envy her. Okay, back to the main topic.

And this school is going to help me to support my goal: having my own hospital for the needy and poor people, free of charge!!! I have to own it someday. Really. Like, my very own thing.

God, please help me get through this moment of my life. I really am work as hard as I can.
Just You who can help me, ya Allah...

No comments:

Post a Comment