REDDISH

I don't know what to write. I just want to say that life been amazing and sometimes not. You know, life happened. Been married to my husband now for almost  1.5 years. No kids, yet. Hopefully soon. #AfifahRizky040218 Been working as civil servant as tax officer for almost 4.5 years now. Trying to pursue my master degree applying for scholarship but not too eager. Still hesitate to leave my husband with current job. Seksi Pelayanan Jan 16-Feb 19 As much as I can complain, but God's been amazing. Alhamdulillah. 27 soon this September, it is clear that I'm getting older, but sometimes I feel I'm just still kids inside. I'm still overwhelmed with my adult life. You know, people said it's quarter life crisis. It shall pass but it's hard :(

I am being attach too much on you all guys and I sure forget how to be independent. See, this weekend is christmas holiday and my friends are going home so I end up spending this weekend alone. Since I live in Bandung, being away from your family, it's hard to live, I mean doing activities like have 3 times a day meal, doing laundry and stuff, with no company. I'm so dependent to my friends. Anyway that's okay I kinda do have to learn to be independent again. Happy holiday everyoneeeee. Merry christmas for those who celebrate it, may you all surrounded by joy and grace with your loved ones. Powered by Telkomsel BlackBerry®

Yes, home sweet home, finally... after rrrrr 3 weeks? My last visit is not counted, I was sick and it's only for few hours. So, it's 7 weeks probably. Being home is such rrrrr undescribable feeling. Really. And after this home-coming I probably am not gonna come home till December or January. So, how's my life in Bandung? Pls, don't ask, hey but you just asked, okay stupid monologue. My life's been hectic, tiring, exciting and amazing at the same time. This econ major turns out to be so much fun, bcs it's awhole new thing for me as a science student in high school. The best part is the new friends. I won't survive without them. Really. I love you, e!10 I just finished my very bery first mid-term exam, 9 hours ago to be precise. My mom asked 'how was it?" and I replied only with "Yaaaaa begitulah...". I can only hope for best result. In case for the worst, bad bad very bad score. I'm not gonna regret any of my exam's score, it's...

I love football! I'm soooooooo excited with this World Cup 2010! Lil' dissapointed with the Opening Ceremony, the stadium wasn't so crowded the seats' not full, I didnt feel the euphoria like I had experienced in 2006 I dont know why. So, here we come here we go I'm gonna trying to watch aaaaall the matches after June 17th, haha not gonna happen that's too much

Yiah gaya bgt ya bahasanya. Engga gue cm mau memotivasi diri sendiri aja deh, gatau lagi dengan jalan apa gue bisa menghimpun asa yg telah berserah beeeeeeeeeh gaya. Gue skrg udah sadar kalo kekecewaan dateng saat lo terlalu banyak berharap, berekspektasi tinggi. Gue jadi inget tulisan di Buken FDV, Ekspektasi Nol, ya gue akan berekspektasi nol. Ga bukan ga optimis, ya pkoknya gitulah. Haha ga jelas bgt Somehow gue merasa apa yg ada di kepala gue kl ga gue tulisin, ato gue omongin ke orang jadi bkin gue nangis, makan ati, menyayat hati, apapun deh namanya, akhirnya gue seminggu ini being sooooooooo overly emotional, sensitive, I cried easily, for God's sake! Dont you believe that I cried all the time during I saw Karate Kid! Yes that one was so encouraging, about the fight and struggle which is sooooo me now. Gue ngerasa dari awal gue mau msk kedokteran gue udah salah niat, makanya Allah ga ngasih2 juga sampai detik ini. Gue semata2 hanya pgn cita2 gue tercapai, memenuhi ambisi dar...

I miss you red-dish! Sorry I've been leaving you for a rrr... while. Blame toinfinity-andbeyond and his coolness haha. Okay, what did I do? I just gave my blogs a sexual identity! --, Ok, since my tumblr's dashboard is full of Glee season finale spoilers I can't, actually I don't want to see it. So this is my getaway, the pefect one. red-dish, after all, you are always be my number one in my heart! haha You know what I've been through right? Yes yes yes I'm still on my fight to enter this fucking meds school! And after all these tests, yes I had 8 tests, I still dont get this future school! Thanks God, I got accepted in UNPAD, but not meds school unfortunately! I overused exclamation mark! --> I just did it again. So I decided to take this economic studies in UNPAD but no, don't think that, I don't give up on my very first goal, my ultimate goal of my life, become a doctor, I just delay it maybe. I fortunately still have this last shot to enter meds s...

I got my Year Book today. I am happy, satisfied and relieved but on the other side I'm sad, teribbly very sad. No, not sad, it's not the appropriate word. Hm... I don't know I feel so overly... overly... ah I couldn't find the word. So this is the book, It was good, real good *hey it's a brand!* I couldn't find the right word to describe what's inside this book. To me personally, this book has a lot of story. Every picture there has each story behind it. This is like portable time machine, I suddenly flashing back to my past and re-experience all the things I did during high school years! Really. I'm gonna miss high school, miss them so bad it hurts. No, I'm not gonna get anything like these again in my whole entire life. I'm sure not gonna experience anything more awesome than these, because I won't experience it with exact same people, same time, same place! So, it was an incredible moments with you all guys! I love you wholeheartedly...

Just nothing. I don't know what to write. It's exactly gonna be a bunch of crap, words without meaning, without point. My life no longer fun, at least now, today. I desperately live my life without no destination. Hell, what was that? I wrote that exactly? See, this is me now, first day of period, nothing's going wrong and I said that I desperately live my life without no destination? What a bunch of crap I wrote!!! Okay I need to do something valuable. Not like this. Stop do these things Fi! Your life is fine. Just fine. It's just another bad day. Just take a long deep breath. Inale. Exhale. Hufffff............

Hidup adalah perjalanan Melangkahkan kaki menyusuri jalan Jalan yang penuh rintangan Tujuan hidup kita sama Namun mungkin saja kita mengambil jalan yang berbeda Bahkan jika memang ditakdirkan berada di satu jalan pasti kita akan bertemu belokan atau persimpangan Disana kita memilih ke kanan atau kiri Kemana hati akan membawa kaki ini Tak ada yang tahu Dengan apa atau siapa akan bertemu Selamat jalan dan sampai jumpa kawan Sampai bertemu di tempat tujuan

About 34 hours from now, I'm going to have my National Exam. I supposed to be in my room right now, but here I am, writing this post in front of computer. No special things I'm going to write, just my random thoughts as usual. I dont care what people think, say, and talk about me. I just dont give a damn. I believe what I believe. Well, I'm not that idealistic but yeah I have my own belief. My father once said that, religion is not just about praying to your God and do your God's command. It's also about sticking up with its value, what your religion told you to, and apply it in your life. My father was right. Your ibadah is only your bussiness with your God. What you do, how you act, what you say, is your bussiness with other people. No, I'm not a good person, I'm still far from it but I'm trying to be one. I do cheat but no not for this one. It's just not me. Do your best and let God do the rest :) Bismillah...

I lost my ability in writing. I've been just writing three post this year. It's kinda hectic moment of my life. It's overwhelming. I really am stressful. In this moment I just wanna take a break. I want to have a getaway. And I found that my blog is the perfect getaway. Writing is one of my favourite thing to do when I feel so mess up. I ever wrote my blog while crying or even with fully-smile-face. and I dont care about what I wrote because I know people won't read it haha. My ultimate goal this year: become med school student, not just FKUGM. As long as it's med school and I'm being accepted there I will definitely take it. No, I'm not pesimistic with my very first goal, but I'm just being realistic. About fifteen thousand people are wanting to become med school student this year and just about 300++ luckiest of all gonna be accepted. That's a huge number guys! It's 1 : 50!!! And I failed in my very first enroll test. PBS. And I'm going to ...

Kata siapa? Siapa yang bilang hidup ga adil? Semua orang bilang hal itu gila! Yah kl buat gue itu udah cukup adil karena semua merasa hidup itu ga adil

Halooooooooooo! GUE ADALAH MERUPAKAN SANGAT KANGEN NGEBLOG!!! *kalimat ga efektif sedunia* Apa kabar kalian? Semoga baik Kabar gue? Alhamdulillah masih dikasih umur sama Allah, masih bisa nafas sampai sekarang. Masih berjuang untuk meraih mimpi dan cita-cita haha bahasanya... Ya sekarang gue kelas XII, seperti anda semua ketahui *padahal ga semua tau juga sih ya* , dan disibukkan dengan belajar dan belajar buat persiapan UN dan tes masuk PTN ternama di Indonesia. Sebagai putra putri bangsa Indonesia yang memiliki cita-cita setinggi langit dan yang mulia *Amin* gue pengen, mau, harus, wajib, insya Allah *tolong diaminin: Amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin!* jadi dokter. Ya dan gue memilih Universitas Gadjah Mada sebagai pilihan perguruan tinggi untuk melanjutkan studi untuk meraih cita-cita yang tersebut diatas. Ya jadi di post ini saya memohon doa dan restu bapak-bapak ibu-ibu adek kakak om tante pakde bude semuanya!!! Segenap bangsa Indonesia bahkan orang di seluruh pelosok dunia t olong do...

“When you get old, in life, things get taken from you. I mean, that’s a part of life. But, you only learn that when you start losing stuff. You find out life’s this game of inches, so is football. Because in either game, life or football, the margin for error is so small. I mean, one half a step too late or too early and you don’t quite make it. One half second too slow, too fast and you don’t quite catch it. The inches we need are everywhere around us… And I know if I’m going to have any life anymore it’s because I’m still willing to fight and die for that inch, because that’s what living is , the six inches in front of your face .” — Al Pacino, Any Given Sunday

the only broken instrument that works

If you cant get someone off your mind maybe they are probably supposed to be there

I spent good time this afternoon. I was having a-silly-and-not-important conversation with my boy friends. My girls is so busy, they practiced for their play this Saturday, come and see them at GKJ and oh ya the rest are gone to Turkey. They're having folklore festival there. So this afternoon I ended up having the chit-chat with the boys. I have twin friends. They are Tio and Sabun, the last one's real name is Dio, but yes we call him Sabun, soap in English, dont ask me why. They both are soooo silly. I knew Sabun first then Tio. At first I though Tio is more cool then his brother. But I never right about them. They just annoying you know!!! Hey why am I talking them??? Ok stop talking about them. What's been on me lately? I'm busy with my school. Not the lessons. It's more about the extracuricullar things, the student council and my adventure club. July-September been my busiest months every year. And yeah I'm on them now. Wish me luck I'm doing good on t...

Bintang bintang tak bicara Walaupun seribu nada Kau nyanyikan malam ini Kau tau cinta bukan tabir kata Tak perlu engkau tunggu selamanya Kau impikan malam ini Tak perlu dekat jika hati bisa rasakan hadirnya Tak perlu terungkap sebab hidup rahasia Bagiku cukup tuk menikmati yang ada dan terjadi Semoga mengerti.... Buat Kamu - Syaharani This song is lyrically, musically good. Parah gue suka banget sm lagu ini. Tiap malem ga absen gue dengerin (lebay), lagu pengantar tidur. Karena lagunya yang mendayu dayu jadi merilekskan tubuh setelah seharian berkutat dengan masalah masalah yang ga henti hentinya dateng, haha ini ngomongnya jadi ngelantur. Ya, sekarang lagu ini bisa dikatakan gue banget! Setuju banget gue sm lagu ini. Ga semua hal perlu terungkap, karena hidup itu rahasia...................

Asal lo tau gue udah berkali kali pencet Backspace buat nulis post ini. Gue bener2 gatau mau nulis apa, sekarang gue cuma mau melepas kerinduan gue sama blog gue. Kasian dia ga ada yang mratiin haha. Ada sesuatu hal baru yang gue pikirkan sejak Kamis minggu lalu. Ya, semenjak nonton Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince, gue selalu memikirkan hal ini. Shit!!! Gue sebel bgt kalo gue dalam keadaan kaya gini. Asli. Sebel bgt. Oke ini post paling ga penting sepanjang karir blogging gue apa deh ini bahasanya. Yaudah deh ah sekarang lagi ujan nih, asik bgt ga sih malem2 ujan deres ada gledek2 gitu trs gue sambil dengerin lagu John Mayer. Gila aura ngantuknya makin kuat aja deh ini. Yaudah deh ah nanti gue cerita cerita lagi xoxo, Afoi

And again I better close my ears than listening people talking about things